Reply 40 of 70, by Gemini000
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wrote:As for having fears and stuff, I have this paralysing fear of dying. Can't stand the idea of not existing any longer. It never occurs during the day, only when I go to sleep. Sometimes I just want to get up and run yet at the same time I know that it wouldn't do me any good so I just clench fists and sob. You can't outrun death :D
Life and Death are very unusual topics for me because I don't understand nor interpret existence in that manner. :o
...and no, I don't have the words nor capacity to adequately describe how I see the topic. The short of it though is I have no fear of death, but no desire for it either, and part of the reason for this is because I don't see death as an end to existence, just an end to physical life in the current realm of space and time we inhabit. I've seen enough of existence to know that if death were the end of everything, then life would be completely pointless, and I can't believe that everything we are and know is just a great big wad of uselessness. This universe on its own (let alone anything which exists beyond or before) is too damn big and too damn complex for our ultra-miniscule presence to be nothing more than a joke.
One of the many ways I see it is just like dreaming: Every night I sleep I have tons of dreams, each with its own world and settings and characters and things to do, and every time I wake up, or every time a new dream begins, I'll never again return to the place I was in. Each dream is, in a way, its own miniature existence for a brief while. Life and death are possibly very similar in that regards, and once life on this world is over, the next begins, be it here on this world, on some world far away, another dimension, another place in time, Heaven, Hell, Limbo, maybe even a world of cartoon ponies. I believe the end result is very personal and changes for each individual, otherwise existence as a whole would be incredibly cruel and I can't believe that for a second.
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