First post, by SquallStrife
You've probably noticed that my activity on this forum has atrophied a bit.
I've been fighting depression for years now, but the last year has been especially challenging. Clinically diagnosed depression and generalised anxiety disorder, on top of my Asperger syndrome. I've been through multiple psychologists, been taken to the ER more than a few times, and just now starting my 4th different anti-depressant. Maintaining the will to carry on existing has been so draining, I've not had the energy to do anything else. Some days I didn't even have the energy to feed myself, so I was going days without food, it was just too hard. This hasn't been the case for a few months now, but the risk of relapse is always there, and it scares me.
Know that I'm on a very slow road to recovery. I think. I hope. It doesn't feel like it sometimes, to be honest, but I'm assured by those close to me that I'm showing improvement.
VogonsDrivers.com is still alive, but I'm way behind on account requests and driver submissions in the thread. For this I am profusely apologetic. Please don't think I've stopped caring, I care a lot about the site and this community, but the black dog is a real bitch.
I don't know what I hope to achieve by posting this here, I guess I just wanted to let you all know I'm still around and kicking, in case anybody was wondering.